September

actually is the month that i'm looking forward to since young...

but,
not for now...

why?
i myself don't know why,
which is a very sad thing.

September is the month that belongs to my month of birth.
i can recall how excited am i when i was young,
pondering for the day to approach,
and wish to get lots of unexpected gifts,
and gifts from unexpected people =)

sadly but not for these recent years,
my birthday is like other ordinary day,
i find no excitement at all,
is like,
okay, whatever is gonna be up for me,
is just plain normal,
but nevertheless,
i'll still appreciate for what has done by them.

hmm...
this year im turning 19,
i don't know for my age like this,
am i behaving like one,
i don't know...
age to me now is like nothing to me.
i have this thought in me,
unless i'm beyond legal age,
i'm legal for any legal activities in Malaysia.
but still i'm enjoying my life till age 21,
till then i can have much more freedom.

anyway,
counting down to 2 more days,
Jamie gonna get her "key"
once in the life time!
she's 21.